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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 08:55

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I don,t even have a pension.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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But, we were locked up after school.

It was going to be , some day.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But it wasn’t much.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Why do you write?

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Was to survive, this bastard.

Is it just me, or do we all hate Sasuke from Naruto?

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Ive learnt so much.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

This is soul school!.

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My family never makes their pension either.

Who then, do I blame.?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She loved him until the end.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

What do you love to do at night when you’re alone?

I could never make a relationship work though!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I was very sick at this time too.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I waited trembling.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He knew the spot.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She found it foreign!.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Im still living with it.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I will be 64.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I have no regrets .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And i lived it daily.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I was scared of men, in general

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

What did i know ?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We all went to grammer schools

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I couldn’t, believe it.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I write beautiful poetry .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I never cut or harmed myself..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She married twice! .

All the time i was locked up.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I think the readers, may guess!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My life is so biszare .

When she asked me how she looked .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I was seconnd youngest,

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

So, i spoilt her more .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was 9 years of age.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She was in good health!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

So whats the point in blame.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Comes on , in middle age.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Put me off passion for life!!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Especially a lifetime of it.

Would this be the day?

One cannot live in the past .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She wouldn,t have been !

He resisted the act ,that day.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

We were not on the streets..

(And it was in our own minds.)

I said to her

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Where the ultimate outsiders.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)